stress!

I don't know where to start. This may become just a stress post mixed with other stuff. Yesterday, forensics practice went well for us. I am just really frusterated because I keep messing up the order of the lines. The other two years I've done this I haven't had a problem with it. I don't know if my medication is a factor or what, but it's just very frusterating for me.

As I was coming home from practice, I see what I thought was my mom stuck in our driveway (thanks snow plow>:() anyway, it turns out it was her boyfriend trying to get the car unstuck, and he was really angry and mad. He was making comments about leaving, I got scared. I didn't know if he ment just leaving for a hour or so because he was stressed and angry, or actually leaving leaving. I guess they got into a big fight. The snow blower also scratched his new car so he was mad about that. I dont really want to get into what the fight was about, but I was so sad/confused/scared when I thought he was leaving. I have trouble contecting with some male figures because of dad leaving and my step dad leaving. And I really like her boyfriend, and his kids, so the thought of losing more people really scares me.

I would have to say that is one of my biggest fears. I make good connections with people pretty easy. I guess its hard to explain. Basically I am really afraid that he might leave sometime (not because of this fight) but just because it could happen. By the end of the night they were fine, things are okay and normal again. But I guess it just triggers some old emotions that I really don't talk about much.

Anyway, some other stuff now..So when I am able too, I am thinking about getting a tattoo, but it's not going to be something cheesy that I wont like in two years, its going to be something that will always mean something to me. One of my ideas was to get the phrase "No Day But Today" By that I mean, theres no day but today to: love, laugh, live, enjoy, cherish, to make sure your living your life to the fullest, to believe in every thing you do. I could go on because I have a lot of examples, but I won't. I wanted a tattoo that would say all of that, but I didn't really know how to condence that. I believe its important to make sure each day of your life is lived to the fullest of your capabilities. Everyone should leave a positive impact on the world. so thats my thought.

I have my doctors appointment tomorrow. I am guessing they are just going to take blood to test for stuff. But I guess I will find out.

In sociology today, one thing we did is find out what presidential canidate we would most likely vote for. Or who we most agree with. www.votechooser.com if you are interested.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knock-knock_joke Just incase you want to know hwere the knock-knock jokes cae from.
have a good weekend!!!

Kylee